Life Pressures I'm Currently Feeling at 23
Just some thoughts and feelings I’ve had recently.. everything I feel pressure to be and feel and do right now.
I thought you might relate!
To drink almond milk coffee
To give up coffee all together
To have a 100% sustainable & ethical wardrobe
To be wearing Maggie Marilyn when I can’t afford it
To keep up with Brexit and actually understand it
To speak about anything, everyone and everything perfectly to avoid criticism
To show up to things I don’t want to go to
To go out drinking every weekend
To learn not to burst into tears when pretty much ANYTHING goes wrong
To convince everyone that I’m not just another pointless ‘social media influencer’
To convince the older generations in my industry to take me seriously
To convince older generations in general to take me seriously
To move out of home even though I live in Auckland and I don’t want to pay someone else’s rent
To do F45
To keep my lady mo waxed at all times
To keep my suede boots clean through the whole of Autumn/Winter
To make a home cooked meal instead of order pizza when that’s all I want
To have a huge social circle and friend group when I really can only keep up with 3 friends
To be ‘fun to be around’
To leave the house in the weekend when I’m truly a huge homebody
To be saving for a house
To be constantly busy, when being busy gives me complete anxiety
When I read that list, it’s so easy to say “oh what a load of crap, just live your life girlfriend!”, but I think the pressures that are thrown at us in our twenties are monumental, especially when we self compare and are unable to have what others have, whether it be in real life or on social media. HOW am I supposed to be a ‘successful business lady millennial’, make the time to eat and make nutritious food, save for a house, purchase sustainable & ethical clothing only while those brands prices are out of my budget right now, struggle with inner conflict over not being environmentally conscious enough, go to F45, spend quality time with my partner, be a good and physically present best friend, be a great daughter, take ‘me-time’ to recharge the introvert inside of me, manage my mental health, keep my entire body waxed and shaved at all times, make sure people take me seriously and buy that Maggie Marilyn blazer all at the same time?
All of that makes me tired just by reading it, let alone living it.
Some of you might think that the above is 100% achievable, and I’m jealous of you! But I am the type of person who gets exhausted by life very easily, and enjoys staying focused on the simple things. So here’s to doing everything at our own pace, to knowing that life is not a race, life is not about owning $1000 blazers or being the perfect sustainable human. We are all doing our BEST.
So accept what your best is, be at peace with your best, be a good human, but remember that at the end of the day, life isn’t enjoyable unless you’re looking after you! Look after you first, then worry about the rest.
I’m working on it! (Still got time for Pilates tho)